Originally posted on August 31, 2017
This is a post about suicide and how it relates to online femdom.
I am not one for disclaimers or trigger warnings but I’m just going to put this out there because I had a REALLY difficult time writing this post. The research was done in spurts because I’d get upset looking at some of the clips that women make. Yes, I shed some tears in the creation of this post. Nevertheless, if you are feeling suicidal: Contact the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 1-800-273-8255 or any other resources that are available to you.
Let me make this very clear: Encouraging men to commit suicide is wrong, makes you a vile piece of shit and is probably a crime.
I don’t want to confuse “Suicide Encouragment” videos with “Executrix” videos. Executrix* videos have an element of fantasy to them. An executrix video looks like this clip from Lindsey Leigh titled “Assassinating My Husband”:
I have been reprogrammed by my lover and I am on a mission to my [KILL MY] husband. I bet you have noticed that I have been missing the past few days. I have been with my lover and he has given me specific orders, [KILL MY] my husband. That is just what I am going to do, with this very sharp Samurai sword. He instructed me to give you a long, agonizing humiliating [DEATH]. This is exactly what I am going to do, better start running honey!
**The brackets were added because she used banned words on clips4sale. More on banned words later in this post.
This clip here is divorced from reality. I actually think executrix videos are cool because you get to see some dommes work their creative side. Usually they feature the domme dressing up like a vampire, a witch or a famed character like Harley Quinn. I’m guessing that is a nice and welcomed break from the average bread and potatoes clips they have to film en masse..
Now let’s compare this video to a clip from long time industry piece of shit Bratty Jamie titled “The Easy Way Out”:
Depression admit it you have some version of it most do and it is nothing to be ashamed about it. Does life have you down? Come on tell me what it is, is your wife cheating on you? Do you realize that maybe you are never going to climb the ladder at work? Whatever it is you did find some release by jerking off and it worked for a little bit now didn’t it? But then you only got relief by jerking off and only for that short time. Hell you can barely look yourself in the mirror now can you. Your family hates you or maybe worse maybe you are in your mid 50s and no one ever wanted to have a family with you. Lets be serious here you are worthless you are nothing so why not take the easy way out and just go ahead and do that one simple little way that you could end all of this. Come on I want you to feel the ultimate pleasure by k!lling yourself come on end it all right now with me I am here to help you to guide you all of this suffering can end and I promise no more pain…..
((By the way, if you want to see what I mean about iwantclips continued support of racial humiliation after they publicly said they’d ban it, go to Bratty Jamie’s iwantclips page. She has at least FOUR racist clips. What a fucking joke.))
Let’s ignore that Bratty Jamie probably failed english grammar in high school, this video is firmly planted in reality and is fucked up.
If a man is buying a suicide encouragement clip, he is on a spectrum of depression, possibly mentally ill or likes jacking his dick off to deranged women. I think the latter case is ethically okay but still troubling, however the depressed and mentally ill group of guys would prevent me from ever thinking this kind of clip is okay.
But even still, I’m going to point you toward this clip from Mistress B titled “Suicidal Tendencies”:
~A custom clip in which the name, William is used.~ His request: I really liked the video “Executrixx by Suicide,” in this video could you do a similar look and style with the black background but wear a bra instead please and use my name often. Start off by telling me you know how I deal with anxiety, depression and feelings of worthlessness. Tell me you think it’s pathetic how much time I spend in my room in front of the computer masturbating and how my life is going nowhere. Encourage me to end my miserable life. Reveal to me that I live in a solipsist world where I am the only one who truly exists. Tell me “I am not The Mistress B, but simply a voice inside your head. I don’t exist, I’m only a projection of your mind.” Tell me this life is meaningless and there is no god. Tell me this world is only a dream and the only way out is through suicide. Tell me I have several ways of killing myself and give me the options of hanging myself or overdosing on pills. Tell me I don’t have to worry about my loved ones being sad or missing me, because once I cease to exist they will too. At the end say to me “I’m only here to help you William, you know what you have to do now but will you have enough courage to do it?
Damn.
Just… damn.
So let’s try to consider imagine the hypothetical situation here: A man, having some kind of mental ailment, comes to Mistress B, asks her to make a clip where Mistress B encourages William to kill himself in GRAPHIC DETAIL and Mistress B just says, “okay.”
ANY rational person with ethical boundaries would have refused this request. A decent human being might have said, “hey, are you okay? Maybe you should seek some help.” Mistress B didn’t and it’s indefensible.
I question whether she actually had any contact with the requestor of the video at all? I’ve said this before, but I think a lot of empathy is lost in online femdom. If you look at a lot of domme’s feeds, a common insult is for a man to kill himself. Terms like aftercare, which are staples of realtime femdom, seem to be foreign to online dommes.
Why is a large swath of femdom dedicated to taking advantage of other marginalized groups of society? Stepping on less fortunate groups has historically been what white men have done and the crux of femdom is to just follow suit? I just don’t understand it.
If Mistress B’s Twitter feed is to be believed, she made 100K in 1 day. This means that if she refused to make a clip encouraging a man to kill himself it wasn’t going to break her bank. It wasn’t going to prevent her from paying even one bill. It was fucking pocket change. Yet she still made the clip.
The only way that I can rationalize her mindset is if she ascribes to the Princess Ashley mindset. Encapsulated by this super popular tweet that she actually stickied for awhile because she’s a shitty human:
That’s all fine by the way, but at the end of the day, let’s not try to rationalize that you are good people. You are objectively terrible, entitled humans. It’s funny because in my dealings with Mistress B, and I have had a few, she has spent an extended period of time trying to convince me that she is a good person. How? On what planet? How can I look at this garbage and think she’s anything other than a seriously disgusting person?
Even further, ever notice how certain keywords are now banned from clip sites? Words like “die” become “d1e” on iwantclips and Clips4sale. This is because women make shitty clips like this and payment processors like CCBill don’t want to be liable when something inevitably goes wrong.
((I think the need to try to disguise clips encouraging killing is also why you see variations of the spelling of the fetish across different sites. For instance “Executrix” is the clips4sale spelling, but “Execuutrixx” is how iwantclips spells the category. Weird.))
Speaking of how things could go wrong, I wonder if Mistress B could possiby be held criminally liable if “William” had decided to carry through with the request in this clip? After all, this situation isn’t far removed from the case of Michelle Carter, the teenager that convinced an 18 year old boy to kill himself through text messages. The method of communication is different but it’s similar enough to raise some real questions about accountability. Note: I’m not a lawyer.
Even if it wasn’t a custom, I think a domme does hold some responsibility in these situations. What if someone carries through with the instructions in that Bratty Jamie clip? Or this clip from Goddess Canna (by the way, good luck on using a disclaimer to try to skirt responsibility)? Or Princess Kaelin? Or Princess Lacey?
