Originally posted on August 31, 2017
IWANTCLIPS banned me back in April and I’m still scratching my head as to why. It was a memorable day because they actually had their lawyer call me (I’m of the opinion that it was one of Bratty Nikki’s subs because his shit did not look legit at all). Anyways, here is the email that I received from the website:
It has come to our attention that you have been allegedly harassing multiple models from the iWantClips.com website. It also appears from your online postings that you support the exposing of model and users personal information.
We caution you strongly against such blatantly potential unethical and dangerous actions. Online you seem like a decent person with a decent job in the IT sector. Surely you can appreciate iWantClips.com’s consumers and models desire for a certain degree of privacy and safety.
Your actions, intentional or not, are very concerning.Unfortunately, your actions have forced us to engage legal counsel and iWantClips will not hesitate to utilize its council in order to protect its models and customers.
As a result of your actions and in order to protect our models and customers, your account has been permanently suspended.
While iWantClips values its customers support, it will never do so at the expense of its other customer and models potential safety.
Notice that no names or incidents were mentioned here because I’ve never harassed anyone. My M.O. since day one has been to comment on what I am seeing in public view. I don’t @ dommes on Twitter – I just point out the shitty things that I see. If no one views or says anything that’s great I mostly do it for my own catharsis. The truth is that I get triggered by a lot of things that I see in online femdom and if I’m commenting, I’m mad about it.
Shortly thereafter I deleted my Twitter account for a 1-2 months and came back to findom with a different outlook. I stopped following EVERYTHING that was going on and instead paid attention to women that I planned on giving money to. I used to have a list of dommes that contained over 100 dommes at various times but when I returned I followed just 5. I actually stopped following dommes that I like – such as the political row – a group that I largely agree with but whose tweets I know will make me angry. There are even some women that I’d like to support that I don’t follow, there is one particularly classy domme that has the rare distinction of being on the outside of the NFS line (Ni**er, Fa**ot, Suicide), but because she posts about how veganism is superior and GMO’s and things that I don’t agree with, I don’t bother.
Getting banned actually killed my desire for clip buying. I think if you followed the previous blog, you’d notice that I thought that 9/10 clips were not worth the money. I have purchased 12 clips since April – 5 of those have been purchased through Niteflirt. The rest have been purchased because I went directly to the domme and asked if we could bypass the website (I won’t mention the names of the dommes here because Bratty Nikki and her husband will threaten to sue you if you go offsite for things like that. See: Princess Rene).
Also, I think getting banned was kind of a relief on my conscience. All clip sites are terrible, period. They ALL support racism, homophobia, transphobia and encouraging men to harm themselves. But I think IWANTCLIPS was unique in that they publicly said that they would ban racial humiliation from their site and donate the money they did make from RH to Black Lives Matter. I don’t think we ever saw any proof that a donation happened but also, there are plenty of racial humiliation clips currently on IWANTCLIPS site TO THIS DAY. Bratty Nikki and her husband are liars, period. It’s easier for me to support a website that is at least honest about their racism rather than support a website that is desperate for the publicity garnered by being good people.
Instead, I have focused on actual sessions with a few dommes. It’s actually a lot better keeping things simple instead of jumping around all of the time. I spend a lot less time on femdom Twitter which is good becaue it’s a toxic environment.
But still, there have been times when I’ve been mad…
I think most people that are reading this know that I am part of a sub chat room where we talk and gossip and generally joke around. This chat room actually had a leak because a confused 50 year old black man entered the Sunken Place and decided to screenshot everythiing we said and send it to dommes. Two lessons learned from that situation: 1. Never underestimate the bond that a sub has with a domme 2. Understand that dommes care a LOT more than they are willing to admit publicly. Case in point, I have been mentioned in some way shape or form by Ashley, Fierce or their lackeys on a regular basis since April, even while my account was deleted.
I tell this story because while I’m not following dommes that potentially trigger me, the guys in that chat room do and so I am kept apprised of big online femdom happenings. Until last week, the last time I was seething angry at online femdom was the post that i made about Ashley. While some people might be able to let a woman openly bragging about taking advantage of men with mental illness roll off of their shoulder, I could not. She later claimed it was a joke. That was a lie. I think she should just apologize or admit to being a shitty human. Ashley is also a woman that has repeatedly harrassed a UK domme because she made a clip series that vaguely resembled hers. She even got her friends at IWC to ban the clip.
I have been paying a lot more attention recently and I’m not sure why. Maybe it’s boredom, maybe it’s because I’m going through some stress with my dating life, maybe it’s Charlottesville – that is certainly a stressful and depressing situation and I tend to gravitate toward here when things aren’t going well, I can’t put my finger on it. But nevertheless, here I am.
